Tong Hua

I went to Clementi Kbox last night with a friend... He sang Guang Liang's Tong Hua.
I broke down and cried. Felt so sorry towards this friend... :p

Why I cried?

If you wanna woo a girl, I felt this is the best song you can sing. Cos the lyrics and melody of this song is so beautiful, so touching.

This song reminds me of my sad past. When I first heard of this song, in my mind I was thinking "How I wish one day a guy I love will sing it for me."

Slightly more than a year ago, a few days before I went for my Japan Trip, I was going through the darkest period of my life. I was so depressed that I thought I was almost going crazy. My mind was like going through a maze, heading here and there but can't get out.

Then came the day when I boarded the SIA plane to Japan. In the song list of the in-flight entertainment system, I saw this song, Tong Hua. I listened to it over and over again. Throughout the whole 7-hours flight, I just keep listening to this song over and over and over and over again... I lost count of how many times I have listened to the song.

As I was listening to the song, I tell myself to be strong. I tell myself one day, there will be a guy who loves you and he will sing this song for you. That one day your life will be like a fairy tale, happily ever after.

At that time I guess I was coaxing myself to be happy. Pretending that the guy sitting beside me at that time still loves me. Pretending that the whole trip will be wonderful and I will enjoy myself.

I did the same thing on the way back from Japan to Singapore, listening to this song over and over again. Pretending that when I reached Singapore, everything will be like before. Nothing have changed. Pretending that he will not leave me for another girl.

I lied to myself all the way. A futile attempt to make myself feel better. Pathetic ya?

So I cried last night. Felt really silly now. Haha...