New York New York

It's my 3rd day in New York... It snowed today and is really very cold! hehe... first time seeing snow, really quite fun!!!

Everything is quite overwhelming man... the place, ppl, the dance... Im really trying to adapt to it... But im enjoying wat i had learned here...

Finally got things settled, accomodation at midtown... it's a really good location cos it's near all the dance studios i wanna go... the only thing is it's really v v v small and not cheap... guess im paying for the location lor... at least i dun have to squeeze in the subway everyday... hehe...

Got a US line up too... so that I can contact ppl here easily... u can all call me at 646-416-0501... hehe... free incoming for me, not too sure for u... hahaa..

Did two ballet classes and 1 jazz class today... just wanna say that the environment here at Broadway Dance Centre is amazing! You can constantly surrounded by dancers, and there are classes everyday for you to observe...

The teachers are really nice, patient and friendly, my ballet teacher today paid attention to me cos he knows im kinda not too trained in ballet... hehe... he's really very nice... learned so much from him...

Starting from beginner classes now... wanna get myself conditioned first then start attacking all the other classes... it's really cool here...

Miss everybody back in Singapore... Hope everybody is doing well... :)

I hate money

I hate money.

You must be thinking I must be crazy. How can anyone hate money when it can give u wat u want?

Im just wishing that life can be alot more simpler without money. I hate it that the whole world evolves around money.

You have worries whether you have money or not.

When you are rich, you worry people will cheat you or befriend you because of your money. When you are poor, without a doubt, you worry about survival and wish that you have more money to buy what you want.

There's so many people who work very very hard for money. For families, for themselves. They work so hard that they neglect the important things and people in their lives.

For example, families. They work so hard to provide for their families, sometimes in the end when they are gone, the families cared about the money they left behind more than missing them.

Well, Im being very pessimistic here. Im quite a pessimistic person.

Let's just say I cared abt other things more than money. But most people around me don't think the same way.

Even the ones closest to me.

Well, you can say, when u have enough money, u can do watever you want and you can care less about money.

But will money ever be enough? Will you stop earning just cos u got 1 million? I doubt so. You will say since I got 1 million why not I make it 2 million?

And the circle will never never ends.

When you finally think that you earned enough, you are probably 65 years old getting your CPF, and too troubled with many many health issues to do wat you wanted when you were 25.

Ultimately, you cannot bring money into your grave.

I wish to live a life not controlled by money. I want my life to be more than that.

Shanghai Blues Family

Though Shanghai Blues is now officially over... but I still miss all the people involved...

I had so much fun with these lovely people... so many sweet memories and valuable experiences that I won't ever forget...

Thank You Everybody of Shanghai Blues for this wonderful experience... I don't regret spending CNY with all of you!!!




















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First day of Shanghai Blues Rehearsal

Today I finally started doing work after bumming around for 3 weeks... haha...

It's an exciting day with the rehearsal of Shanghai Blues...

Spent a long time working on the opening dance with Jeffrey Tan...

He's very detailed, serious and firm... He makes me wanna work very hard to reach his standard...

Acting out the 2nd scene today is fun... hehe... never really have much formal training on acting but i guess im still ok lah... hehe...

By the time 6pm come by, I was really very tired liao... hehe...

But it's a really fruitful day... learnt alot...

Beauty World Cha cha cha

I just watched Beauty World's gala show just now... I must say it's really impressive...

The story is beautiful... Set, props, costumes are fabulous...

Artistes on stage are really strong... even those doing it for the first time....

What a nice way to motivate myself before I start Shanghai Blues rehearsals...

Got a lot of work to do... I want people to say the same thing or better about Shanghai Blues like what I wrote above...

Learnt alot of things from Beauty World....

I never went home with just a ticket stub and a program booklet... hehe...

Thank you Wild Rice!!! Great Job!!!!

9am

24 dec 2007, 9am...

Woke up at 8.06am by a sms... slept for 3 hrs...

N learn that im bad-tempered n grumpy about everything in life.

n that without tolerance, no relationship can last...

I have been thinking, is it good to tolerate? If u have to tolerate the one u loved, is there something wrong?

Or should e word be "trying to understand each other, n accepting their flaws"...

Just plainly tolerate with no understanding, will only make things worse...

I hate to quarrel... someone will disagree w me about that...

But my "calmly discussions" will always lead to quarrels cos:

1) It is mostly done in the most ineffective way - sms
2) the person has already formed negative views abt u even before u start
3)"discussions" = "complaints"
4) the person strongly believe that u r in for a fight


N one lesson learnt everybody, is never to ignore people even when u r angry.
Cos u really do not know how it will affects the other person.
Mind became completely confused, u will keep thinking wat's happening... N ya... the waiting is the worst thing ever.

Imagine this scenario, you are enjoying urself somewhere, shopping or wat...etc. But you knew there's somebody at home, sillyly just waiting for ur sms or call...

Plus the tears never stop... you can't control it...

4am

24 dec 2007 4am

Im really trying very hard to sleep... but I can't...

Once I close my eyes, tears start flowing n my heart starts beating very fast...

Sending pain to all over my body...

3am

24 dec 2007, 3am...

Still can't get to sleep... Thank you Jacko for chatting with me...

tears have run dry... feeling a deep sense of despair...

Love... Didn't know it hurts so much...

2am

It's 24 dec 2007, 2am

I can't sleep. My tears kept flowing. I can't control it.

I can't believe anyone can be this cruel to the one he once loved.

My heart aches... It's really painful.

It's over...

It's all over...

I did all I can...

I thought he is the one... but I guess Im wrong...

Thank You my Lord, Jesus Christ... Thank you for answering my prayer... I love You...

Goodbye people...

Im flying away to New York next year...