Dark dark dark

Sometimes I really wish that I do not have to grow up. I wish im a baby who only knows how to cry and drink milk... no need to care about anything other than when is my next meal..

As people grow old, things starts to get complicated. People start to worry more and wrinkles starts appearing...

Have to think about study, work, family, boyfriend, money, passion, health... etc.

It's really tiring sometimes...

I find myself quite a unlucky person. Maybe my pessimistic nature adds on to it.

Whenever there's an important occasion or event, I sure have something bad cropped up. Examples? I got chicken pox just one week before my dance performance. I got a bad case of rashes on Valentine Day, My Japan trip organised by SP was cancelled due to Sars... etc.

Strange ya? I dun understand it either... when i went to Australia, I was super worried that the plane will crash! Think im silly? Maybe im. Cos I never believe that nothing bad will happen to me during those important times. It always happened when I least expected it anyway.

Haha... Im finally going Japan in May. Hope the plane wun crash. If God really wants me to die, please do it at some secluded place where non of those closest to me is around. Actually I wish i can die in my sleep. Then i wun affect anybody...

Friends who are reading this, dun worry about me, Im just going through a dark period of my life... i will pick myself up soon i hope.