ROM

Today, my colleague, Annie held her ROM at her house. I attended with my other colleagues during lunch time...

Wow, she looked gorgeous with her wedding gown and when she stood next to her hubby, they look like a match in heaven.

She dropped tears during the ceremony, she said cos it's so touching and she's so happy.

Im very happy for her, but i feel sad for myself. I dropped tears deep inside my heart.

Other than very few, no one in the office knew what happened between my boyfriend and I, So I have colleagues asking me "Fion, when is your turn?"

I really don't know how to answer them and deep down in my heart, there is this arrow stuck in and the pain is really unbearable. I felt like breaking down and cry out loud but I can't do that. How can I spoil people's ROM?

The bride came talking to me, telling me about her wedding package, the photos shots in Malaysia and advicing me what to do next time I got married and reminded me don't be like her and cried during the ceremony.

I don't know what to say to her except to say "hmm... I see, I see..." and tried to force a smile...

I have never felt such pain before... No words can describe and no one can understand.

It's not that I have not experienced break ups before. This time is different. Because being the naive Fion, I thought he is the one i will be spending the rest of my life, to love and behold...

I imagined us getting married, stay together in a small flat, go on honeymoon in Venice, have kids. I felt almost certain that all these will happen one day.

But like what Angela said, nothing is guranteed plus chop. The person who you love so much might just change one day.

You tell yourself not to be hurt again, but in the end, you end up with more sorrows than you ever had.

I just want to be happy in my life, I don't want to be rich, famous or successful... just simply happy and I can tell my grandchildren that ah ma had a happy life and have not regretted it.