Dance is the hidden language of the soul. The body says what words cannot.

Nothing is impossible if you are willing to do the work.

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Left & Right Brain

Hey ppl... try this... very interesting...

While sitting at your desk, lift your right foot off the floor and make clockwise circles.

Now, while doing this, draw the number "6" in the air with your right hand.

Your foot will change direction and there's nothing you can do about it.

Irony of The Story of DBG

Quite a while ago, Someone I know wrote a Story about DBG. It's about a girl who has taken a guy's helpfulness and efforts for granted.

Here is what he wrote:
"To DBG, you are a spoilt little girl. You think I purposely made you all study those topics for fun? You think it's my fault a stupid shit test came out? You gonna take out your frustration over time wasted studying useless information on me? Well you can piss off then. No help will come to you until you learn to appreciate what the people surrounding you are doing for you. People may not know what is best. People may not know the future. But at least thank them for trying."

Reading this again at this moment of time makes me wanna puke.

Know why? Cos the person who wrote the Story about DBG treats someone the same way DBG treats him. TAKE SOMEONE FOR GRANTED.

Don't know since when he has taken a girl who has selflessly love and care about him for granted and stop appreciating what she has done for him.

She even has to ask for a thank you when she bought him breakfast to his hostel.

There was one day, the guy threw temper at her cos he was pissed off doing something for very long because of the girl and results in him going home late.

The girl was super upset, but still she didn't get angry and threw temper back at the guy cos she felt she was at fault.

She immediately bought dinner for him and brought it all the way to his hostel.
No thanks for that also.

Maybe he has got used to the fact that the girl will buy and bring meals to him... Maybe he thinks that the girl is obligated to do that. Maybe the girl is just fucking too nice.

Maybe the girl has also taken him for granted and he thought she deserves it?

I don't know. All I know is he no longer appreciates anything the girl has done for him.

It's ok if he don't appreciate cos the girl don't really mind. She is happy enough knowing he is happy.

But know what the guy did? He hurt her. And he did it continuously. Til the girl's heart is all bruised and broken and has since hardened.

Now the guy wants to break up with the girl. After hurting her so much, he did nothing to make her any better, instead he wants to push her to a bottomless pit.

Without her friends, the girl might not be able to pick herself up again. She might still be in depression now and don't know what to do.

You see, some people only know how to say. They don't do what they preach.

Which of cos sucks...

And sucks big time.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

WORDS WOMEN USE

Something interesting...

FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

FIVE MINUTES
If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

NOTHING
This is the calm before the storm. This means "something," and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with 'Nothing' usually end in "Fine"

GO AHEAD This is a dare, not permission. Don't do it.

LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"

THAT'S OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not question it or faint. Just say you're welcome.

Friday, May 20, 2005

ROM

Today, my colleague, Annie held her ROM at her house. I attended with my other colleagues during lunch time...

Wow, she looked gorgeous with her wedding gown and when she stood next to her hubby, they look like a match in heaven.

She dropped tears during the ceremony, she said cos it's so touching and she's so happy.

Im very happy for her, but i feel sad for myself. I dropped tears deep inside my heart.

Other than very few, no one in the office knew what happened between my boyfriend and I, So I have colleagues asking me "Fion, when is your turn?"

I really don't know how to answer them and deep down in my heart, there is this arrow stuck in and the pain is really unbearable. I felt like breaking down and cry out loud but I can't do that. How can I spoil people's ROM?

The bride came talking to me, telling me about her wedding package, the photos shots in Malaysia and advicing me what to do next time I got married and reminded me don't be like her and cried during the ceremony.

I don't know what to say to her except to say "hmm... I see, I see..." and tried to force a smile...

I have never felt such pain before... No words can describe and no one can understand.

It's not that I have not experienced break ups before. This time is different. Because being the naive Fion, I thought he is the one i will be spending the rest of my life, to love and behold...

I imagined us getting married, stay together in a small flat, go on honeymoon in Venice, have kids. I felt almost certain that all these will happen one day.

But like what Angela said, nothing is guranteed plus chop. The person who you love so much might just change one day.

You tell yourself not to be hurt again, but in the end, you end up with more sorrows than you ever had.

I just want to be happy in my life, I don't want to be rich, famous or successful... just simply happy and I can tell my grandchildren that ah ma had a happy life and have not regretted it.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Managers are useless bunch of craps

I cannot imagine how useless someone can be in a company...

When I start working life, I was prepared to face all kinds of people.

But my company is damned extreme to the maximum... There's really ALL kinds of people here...

The first year when I was in the company was quite smooth sailing, colleagues are nice people who won't hide a knife behind their smiling faces.

But when that bunch of colleagues one by one leaves the company, and the people who replaces them starts to show their true colours, things became bad...

I have a MD who shouts at everybody he saw when he's in a bad mood and when he calls someone, he dun call them by name, he will start saying, "ah you you, wait, I want to talk to you." He still do that to me now even though im in this company for 2 years and he obviously know my name. Cos there was once he called my name when i purposely ignored his "ah you you". But of cos, special treatment is given to those who put their breasts on the MD table and talk to him in a super high and gentle pitch...

I have a GM who leads people as though they are soldiers. He really thought he is a commandor or officer or wat every shit in army... He likes to talk about leadership stuffs as if he's damned pro at it when he didn't realise that he actually sucks at it looking at the high staff turnover rate each year.
Oh, and not forgetting, he goes by the "F" management and shouts to everybody also when he's in bad mood, just like his father, the MD. Guess it's in the family blood.

I have a HR manager now who do nothing everyday except to talk to my GM in his room, walk around the third floor and gossip about children, clothes, guys...etc. When everybody is BUSY with their own stuffs and ignore her, she will go back to her desk and read her novel. Damned free... And it's a big contrast when I see the HR Executive beside her so busy that she has never go home on time from the first day she joins the company.

Then finally, my manager. Literally a bloody asshole. Before I went to Japan, I got a urgent pending task. Cos I won't be around to do it, I asked him if he can assist me in following up on the task. He say ok and I packed the documents nicely in a envelope and give specific instructions.
And what the fuck did he do? He screwed it up by losing the whole envelope.
When I came back, he said he lost it and I searched high and low for it but I can't find it anywhere. I do not have any copy with me.
I told him I can't find the documents HE LOST, know what he told me? "Fion, you go and settle it yourself."
WTF. Know what Im going to do? Ignore the god damned task and do nothing.
Im quitting soon anyway, so throw him to die.

Im amazed that Im still in this company now, typing this post. Throwing my resignation letter very very soon.

Monday, May 16, 2005

Supplier Guy

Hmm... A few months back I know of a guy through my work... He came to my company trying to sell his company's service to me... So he got my namecard and there's my handphone number on it...

Anyway, he starts calling me at my office first. One day, he called and i was on mc. The next day he called and ask me how am i feeling, so I just entertain him a while. That day during lunch, he came down to my office, bringing me herbal tea, sweet and han chim pan... He says, the herbal tea is to help me recover faster, sweet is for me suck cos the herbal tea is bitter, then han chim pan is scare im hungry so buy for me to eat.

It's really sweet of him... And he started calling me quite often from then on.

But I don't know him well and at that time i was still attached. So i kinda ignore his advances...

Recently, he started to call me again, asking me if he can send me to work, fetch me home... etc... I turned all his offers down...

But with all the attention he's showing me, It kinda help me to forget all my unhappy stuffs for a while... and the fact that there's still someone willing to show me concern when another treats me like shit, makes me feel that my rainbow will come soon after a heavy rain...

Basically I dun have any feelings for the guy... hmm... but see how lah, someone says he's a good catch and he's quite good looking also...

Haha... but now no mood lah... concentrate on my dance and work and SAT first...

Sunday, May 15, 2005

I'm back

Im back from Japan!

Was a really enjoyable trip! really see alot of interesting stuffs...

Friends, im still surviving, so dun worry about me...

Yawns... im tired... will start posting about my trip once i got all my pics organized...

going sleep liao... ZZZZZzzzzzz....

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Japan Trip

I'm finally going Japan tonight.

No idea what I will do or what will happen... Just hope everything will go well and I will enjoy my trip.

Friends, don't worry about me, I will be strong and I will take good care of myself.

Life is so unpredictable sometimes... and it seems like my theory abt me always being unlucky before important events is kinda accurate...

Actually why am i making myself so pessimistic and negative?

I made a committment, and that's from 06/05/2005 onwards, Im going to be a positive person, I will be optimistic. I will be confident in myself and look at the good side of things...

Im unlucky one time doesn't mean I will be unlucky forever. We can always look forward to see rainbow after a heavy rain...

I will be happier this way and that kind of Fion makes my friends happy too.

Life is not only about yourself. It's about alot of other people around you. When I made someone smile today, I will smile and be happy also...

Anyway, no point hurting myself anymore. My life is more than a broken relationship.

Will post many many many many nice pictures in here when im back on 14/05/2005.

So everybody, take care and have a great day ahead!