No life

I feel that I have no life.

To make matters worse, I'm not important to anyone in this world. Not even my parents, who will only ask me for money and push me aside when they dun need me.

I want to run away. Run away from everybody in my life.

I just want to be alone.

Phobia

I realised Im developing a phobia for crowded places.

I cannot stand crowded trains, buses, shopping centres... etc. Especially in crowded trains where people pushed and pushed and pushed, speak very loudly, children crying...etc.

Then there's those people in the shopping centre who will stare at you rudely when they are the ones who bump into you. Or responded rudely when you ask them not to cut your queue.

My heart will start to beat faster and faster, body will get hotter and hotter, you will feel like screaming out loud inside of you...

Oh my, this is really bad for health... Better avoid these places. Go when it's absolutely neccessary.