9am

24 dec 2007, 9am...

Woke up at 8.06am by a sms... slept for 3 hrs...

N learn that im bad-tempered n grumpy about everything in life.

n that without tolerance, no relationship can last...

I have been thinking, is it good to tolerate? If u have to tolerate the one u loved, is there something wrong?

Or should e word be "trying to understand each other, n accepting their flaws"...

Just plainly tolerate with no understanding, will only make things worse...

I hate to quarrel... someone will disagree w me about that...

But my "calmly discussions" will always lead to quarrels cos:

1) It is mostly done in the most ineffective way - sms
2) the person has already formed negative views abt u even before u start
3)"discussions" = "complaints"
4) the person strongly believe that u r in for a fight


N one lesson learnt everybody, is never to ignore people even when u r angry.
Cos u really do not know how it will affects the other person.
Mind became completely confused, u will keep thinking wat's happening... N ya... the waiting is the worst thing ever.

Imagine this scenario, you are enjoying urself somewhere, shopping or wat...etc. But you knew there's somebody at home, sillyly just waiting for ur sms or call...

Plus the tears never stop... you can't control it...

4am

24 dec 2007 4am

Im really trying very hard to sleep... but I can't...

Once I close my eyes, tears start flowing n my heart starts beating very fast...

Sending pain to all over my body...

3am

24 dec 2007, 3am...

Still can't get to sleep... Thank you Jacko for chatting with me...

tears have run dry... feeling a deep sense of despair...

Love... Didn't know it hurts so much...

2am

It's 24 dec 2007, 2am

I can't sleep. My tears kept flowing. I can't control it.

I can't believe anyone can be this cruel to the one he once loved.

My heart aches... It's really painful.

It's over...

It's all over...

I did all I can...

I thought he is the one... but I guess Im wrong...

Thank You my Lord, Jesus Christ... Thank you for answering my prayer... I love You...

Goodbye people...

Im flying away to New York next year...

Apologize

Just wanna share this song in timbaland's shock value album... I think most of you have heard of this song before... very nice... making me even sadder now...

"Apologize"

I'm holding on your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground

And I'm hearing what you say

But I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me

Then you go and cut me down

But wait...

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat

(But that's nothing new)

Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue

And you saySorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,

But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah

I'm holding on your rope

Got me ten feet off the ground...