Still can't sleep

It's 12.30am now... earlier than yesterday but I still can't get to sleep... Although I worked from 9am to 10pm today...

I have to wake up at 7am tml... But no matter how hard I tried I still can't get to sleep...

My eye still hurts... It hurts more than yesterday... Wanted to go see a doctor but I don't even have the time to do that... I better go tml after show...

Haiz... 4 more shows to go this week... But Im glad that Aidil announced that there's a change of artistes for this sunday's show... which means I don't have to stand on the chingay float and wave my hand for 3 freaking hours... Great...

I feel like my whole life now is going on a downslope... Everything is so bad for me now... Im not feeling well cos of my eye... then I can't eat properly cos I didn't sleep enough... I just feel physically and mentally drained and tired...

And Kiki is still upset with me... I feel like Im losing him...

Haiz... Cried a little but it hurts like hell... I can't even cry when Im upset...

I need a break. And someone who cares and willing to listen to all my shit... But then I shouldn't depend on people all the time...

Guess I have to get through this dark period of time myself...

My sky is full of dark clouds again...

Sucky month of Feb...

It's been more than a month since I last blogged...

Cos really very very busy with company stuffs... and it's not finished yet...

It's 2am now and I felt really tired yet I can't get to sleep... If I can, I won't be blogging here...

It's been a really bad Feb for me...

It started off with a really bad quarrel with Kiki over work stuff... Then burned off all my weekends cos of the Chingay... Plus the usual Music Theory stuffs and road shows... and a sad valentine day... and stupid chinese new yr spring cleaning...

Last Friday, Saturday and Sunday were all spent doing Chingay...

Tml there's a show at the zoo...

Wed there's a show at an old folk home, plus ballet class in the evening...

Thurs there's music theory class in the morning, show at pasir ris camp in the afternoon and evening...

Friday there's music theory class in the morning, show at mandai camp in the afternoon and evening...

Saturday and Sunday... Chingay Chingay Chingay Chingay Chingay!!!! Arghh....

And then next Saturday is the Music theory exam, next Sunday is my company's D & D in which me and choon hui are deputy chairman...

Arghhh... Im seriously overworked... Physically mentally stressed....

Even watching Dream Girls just now didn't really make me feel better... Though I was seated in Gold Class...

Now I can't even cry cos my eye will hurts if I cry... Im having this internal bleeding in my eye... ganna hit on the eye during Chingay parade... Now it's all red and swollen...

I tried my very best not to indulge in self pity and try to be strong...

It's very hard not to fall down the cliff... How I wish I can just let go of my hands and fall...

But I can't... Cos the world is not about me alone...